Joey Kuan Yee Xun

Finally after 10 months of wait, Joey is born on the 8th of April, 12.43am, weighing 3.416kg, 51cm long. This has been a day I had dreamt of for many many years. What is the feeling to be a father? I really don't know how to say, I can see a human being in front of me that is flesh and blood of mine. I know she is my daughter but still after a week since she is born, I am still adjusting my emotions to accept that I am a father.

That special saturday when Joey was born, while standing outside the operating theatre, no one was with me and the whole corridor was empty too. I can still remember the anxiety and excitment of receiving the news of Joey's birth. All i can do was to pace around and pray that both Kless and Joey will be fine. It was at that moment, I realised how much Kless meant to me. Because I was wondering if there was any problem in the delivery, I would definitely choose Kless rather than Joey (sorry baby, if you ever read this blog in future, papa loves you very much too). I can't imagine my life without Kless. She is the rock of my emotions. Everytime when I am going through some difficult times in life, she is there as strong as a rock, given me encouragment and support. Kless, I love you.

Back to Joey. The past week was tough for me and Kless. Being first time parents, there is so many things we do not know. Thank God for my mother who is staying with us. Her experience in bringing up 9 children (me, david & 7 other babies) as a baby-sitter in the past really helped us a great deal. I really wonder how the rest of the couples who do not have their parents staying to help them during this time will cope. It's not only the tireness of being awake practically 24hours. But more than that, the need to be alert all the time. In between feeds (3 hour), every movement or sound from Joey, I will be jumping up to take a look. But sometimes it is very rewarding, because when I move towards her, I may just find that she is smiling in her sleep and that alone will let me forget all the tireness in my body.

Thank you everyone who has showered us with your many gifts. Thank you God for giving me this wonderful gift, I will do my best to take good care of her and teach here according to the ways of the Bible.