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change of blog address

2006-05-15T12:53:00.000-07:00

please visit my new blogging site at destroyer1990.multiply.com

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Joey Kuan Yee Xun

2006-04-15T23:48:00.000-07:00

Finally after 10 months of wait, Joey is born on the 8th of April, 12.43am, weighing 3.416kg, 51cm long. This has been a day I had dreamt of for many many years. What is the feeling to be a father? I really don't know how to say, I can see a human being in front of me that is flesh and blood of mine. I know she is my daughter but still after a week since she is born, I am still adjusting my emotions to accept that I am a father.

That special saturday when Joey was born, while standing outside the operating theatre, no one was with me and the whole corridor was empty too. I can still remember the anxiety and excitment of receiving the news of Joey's birth. All i can do was to pace around and pray that both Kless and Joey will be fine. It was at that moment, I realised how much Kless meant to me. Because I was wondering if there was any problem in the delivery, I would definitely choose Kless rather than Joey (sorry baby, if you ever read this blog in future, papa loves you very much too). I can't imagine my life without Kless. She is the rock of my emotions. Everytime when I am going through some difficult times in life, she is there as strong as a rock, given me encouragment and support. Kless, I love you.

Back to Joey. The past week was tough for me and Kless. Being first time parents, there is so many things we do not know. Thank God for my mother who is staying with us. Her experience in bringing up 9 children (me, david & 7 other babies) as a baby-sitter in the past really helped us a great deal. I really wonder how the rest of the couples who do not have their parents staying to help them during this time will cope. It's not only the tireness of being awake practically 24hours. But more than that, the need to be alert all the time. In between feeds (3 hour), every movement or sound from Joey, I will be jumping up to take a look. But sometimes it is very rewarding, because when I move towards her, I may just find that she is smiling in her sleep and that alone will let me forget all the tireness in my body.

Thank you everyone who has showered us with your many gifts. Thank you God for giving me this wonderful gift, I will do my best to take good care of her and teach here according to the ways of the Bible.

no title

2006-02-04T20:39:00.000-08:00

today is sunday and i am preparing for my bible study classes. so a bit of time to finally update my blog before i am labelled a backslider by the mass bloggers out there.

things have been moving quietly but definitely strongly ever since i have came back from my break in jan. even though in between we had chinese new year, but the pace is surely picking up now. everyone in the office is gearing up for the big move in 2006. GROWTH!!

2 weeks ago, i was driving Pst Tan and had a great chance to talk to him and shared some of my revelation of the Word. don't you for a second think that i am so good, able to talk to Pst Tan regarding the spiritual things. i took a very great step of faith and boldness to open my mouth to share. so you can do so too. one thing wonderful about sharing with your spiritual leaders is after you shared, they will have so much other revelations to tell you too. then you will actually add on to your own revelation of a certain topic or idea. good right?

tonight is the big match between Liverpool and Chelsea. tonight's match will not determine who is going to be the champions in aug, becos i feel that Chelsea will the title this year again. but by winning them, Liverpool will definitely have a very very good chance of finishing 2nd this year and qualify for UEFA champions league next season. for the non-football fans, this paragraph is not for you, just skip it. talking about liverpool, i can't contain my joy becos Robbie Fowler is back again after leaving the club for 4 years plus. he is my favourite pool player ever since he started to play. but sadly, he left but now returns. amen!! i hope he will re-establish himself as the most natural striker in england and bring more goals for liverpool.

delirious? is in town this weekend and leading p&W in our church. yest i attended the svc and they were good. i really agree with Pst Kong that they are probably the best band in the world now.

friday is so quiet

2006-01-26T21:03:00.000-08:00

today in the office is so cold. becos only less than 10 people is in the entire office. the rest of them have all taken leave to do last mintue CNY shopping or to do spring-cleaning. quite a bit of the staffs are going for a new haircut and buy new clothes. CNY is really my most favourite holiday. it's time to get new clothes, new hairstyle, new money for ang pows, etc..

for me, i am trying to change my hairstyle too. trying to keep it longer so that i can do more styling. buti have never succeed in keeping it beyond a certain length. too hot and messy. but i'll try. as for clothings, no new bottoms, going to wear back my old jeans. but i do have a new top, a longsleeve tee from ed hardy. so i'll look very shiny and fresh when i go and meet my relatives on the first day of CNY.

why do i like CNY best? becos i like to gather with my relatives and talk to them. maybe i am one of the fewer people around who likes to talk to my elders at home. i always feel i can learn so much from them, especially the several pastors at my grandma's place. i have 3 uncles who are pastors, so everytime talking to them is like attending a pastors' seminar. they will talk about mission trips, church growth, but also other more relaxing topics lah...

this year when we go over to my grandma's place, i think one of the highlights will be on klessis and her big tummy. joey will be the 4th generation in this big family. my grandma will be great-grandma and all my aunties will be grand-aunties...haha, so interesting..i really pray that my grandma will still be around when joey is born in march and even till next year's CNY. so that she can bless joey. my grandma is about 85 years old now, still very strong. so i pray that more years will be in her so that she can witness her great-grandchild grow up and call her.

friday is so quiet here. so unusual..i'm waiting for my bs groups to come at 4pm. going to run an errand now. so happy chinese new year to all of you.

What a wonderful feeling & encouragement

2006-01-22T08:13:00.000-08:00

ever since i am being transferred to CK zone, i had been given many many chance to give more BS to the members in the zone. this is very good. i love to give BS and i totally agree with what Pst Tan said 2 weeks ago, we learn the most when we teach. that was how he keeps check of his learning tank by giving BS periodically.

someone said to me the other day, that we got to keep learning to be able to teach. that is another very true remark. how can we depend on our past understanding of a certain topic and keep teaching the people around us. we will be short-changing them big time. so i am blessed to be able to keep my learning tank filled every week, almost everyday :)

and the best thing for any BS teacher is when the people we teach comes back to us and remarked that they enjoyed our teaching. this week i was not feeling well and had to cancel a few of my BS classes. so the BS coordinator for our zone helped me to inform the members. and within 30mins, i received more than 5 sms from the members showing their concern and asked me to rest well. some of them even said that the next makeup lesson, they want to be in my class. i was so encouraged by their words. i felt that my calling to teach has not been to waste. i felt that i am like the 5 talent servant, being able to hold another 5 talents back to my Master and report back that i had done something about it.

if you are not giving BS now. start giving in this year. you don't have to complete everything from CIC-GOTP before you are qualified to teach. in fact once you have completed one level, as you are taking the next level, teach others at the same time. becos you will still be very fresh from what you had just learned. many good revelations will not be forgotten.

thank you everyone who had attended my BS class before. thanks for your encouragement during and after the class. than you for allowing me to move in my destiny.

A verse to change my life

2006-01-15T05:25:00.000-08:00

Today we went back to Jurong West Church to attend the last 2 lessons of GOTP with Pst Tan. It was really a long while back since being able to sit in for Pst Tan's bible study. He is definitely one of my favourite BS teacher. I really enjoyed every minute of his teaching and every session with him is able to reveal so much new revelation. Today is not any different.

As Pst Tan goes thru the 12th lesson on the "The 4 requirements of a true worshipper". He mentioned that some verses that is really good to meditate on. When I heard that, I remember the BS lesson I gave in CL about studying God's Word. I was teaching my class about the importance of (1) hearing God's word (2) reading God's word (3) studying God's word (4) memorising God's word (5) meditating God's word (6) applying God's word. I have been quoting the experience I had from the verse Ps 37:4. But as Pst Tan encourages us to meditate on the word, there and then I asked God to give me a new veres to study and meditate on for this year that will change my life. Here is the verse.

1 John 3:21~22
"Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence toward God. And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight."

Wow!! Just by reading it and typing it now in this blog, I can already feel the power of this verse. The tremendous power that is waiting for me to discover, to open the doors of heaven and see the blessings pouring down into my life and into my family.

Friends, let me encourage you to seek for yourself a verse too that you can grasp hold of and start doing the 6 things mentioned above. You will surely see the difference in your spiritual life. Furthermore, it will unleash a new love for the Word like never before. Please share with me your experiences too. Let's use blogs to encourgae each other too.

Last Day of Rest

2006-01-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

today is the last day of my official rest day. i have been on leave coupled with public holiday since the beginning of the year till now. really had a wonderful rest and done quite a bit of things too.

so on the last day, i have decided to sleep a bit more. but still 1145am is the latest i can go, gone are the days when i can laze in bed until late afternoon 2pm or even 3pm. woke up this morning to dear's wonderful smell of food. if you have read klessis's blog, you would have seen what i had for lunch. ever since we are married, klessis has developed the liking of cooking for me. and to be 100% truthful, everything she cooked was Excellent!!

today as i end my holiday, i planned to have dinner with a few old friends @ marina south. old friends like ah hao & cynthia came, together with nigel, dexing & serene. altho we have not met up for quite a long time, but the friendship forged in the past still stayed very much intact. how i wish we can have more time and chance for such gathering.

tml is working day. only a handful of staffs will be back in the office. some of the staffs are still on leave or overseas. so this week will be a quiet week in the office. just great for me to finish up any admin work that has piled up since last nov.

ganbate!!

A new start in 2006

2006-01-06T20:34:00.000-08:00

2006 is here!! i have already shared my feelings for the past year 2005. now let me talk about my visions for this new year. after coming back from a wonderful rest in sebana cove, if you want to know more about my trip, check out klessis's blog and you will enjoy the wonderful clip done by her. i think i am ready to charge forward for the year!

ever since under pst chee kiang's zone, i have had several talks with him and talked about how i can contribute in his zone to help and eventually help me to grow as a leader and maybe in the near future help me to be groomed as a zone supervisor. nothing is taken for granted. if i want to be a zone supervisor, then i got to work hard and build myself up more spiritually. that goes for all of us who wants to be successful in anything we want to accomplish in 2006. so here are some of the visions i plan to achieve in 2006, give me your constructive views if any..

Personal Spiritual Walk
(1) read thru the entire bible in the New Living Translation (must buy a copy in that version first lah)
(2) able to go for at least 1 mission trip
(3) pray more regularly (going for 60mins daily)
(4) fast for more than 14 days (fasting is also a key thing in spiritual improvement and experiencing God)

Family Commitment
(1) be more loving and understanding towards klessis (baby is coming soon, really need understanding and love between us to maintain the honey in the marriage)
(2) have dinner with my mother once a week
(3) have dinner with klessis's parents once fortnightly
(4) have dinner with my father once a month
(5) have dinner with my brother once a month

Ministry Visions
(1) to give more bible study (i believe one of my growing love and talent is to teach)
(2) to help pst chee kiang grow the adult groups in his zone

so that's all!! not too much right??

2nd gathering

2006-01-02T10:11:00.000-08:00

tonight we had our 2nd annual gathering for the SOT team 3 people. attendance: peter, ivy, isaiah, klessis, lena, rachel, matthais, lydia, grace, jeremiah, keng hoe, lixia, brian, gary, haw hann, gina. absentees: cindy, damian, neil. (original team in bold) this year we had new friends that joined us for the first time. lixia is keng hoe's wife-to-be and gary is good friend who studied in the same SOT year. too bad cindy (team leader) is not feeling well so she can't attend, damian got to work OT and neil is in ghana.

the group is definitely growing. new members are added every year. natural increase by marriage and birth. today we had several good news to annouce in the gathering. cindy and klessis are pregnant. keng hoe & lixia, haw hann & gina are getting married. congrats to all!

we met at 3.30pm @ superbowl marina south. only peter, ivy was able to join me and kless. soon lydia and the 2 kids came and we bowled 4 games each. the last time i bowled was maybe 2 years ago, so this time round i didn't play well at all. 4 games average was about 145. i used to be able to have an average of 165. kless joking reminded me that we nearly planned to buy a personal ball and bag at one time. haha. when we are about to finish, matthias, rachel, gina and haw hann arived. then we went over to dragon village for steamboat buffet dinner.

as usual, we went about taking the same old kind of food for the steamboat, but then lydia commented that the food we took was so boring. i was really confused. what does she means by boring? isn't the food the same as usual. then she took over the cooking and gave out instructions what to prepare and she started to cook one of the most delicious prawn bbq i had ever tasted in my life. proof of photo for you to judge.

we had a great time of fellowship. finally keng hoe and lixia arrvied and so did lena. lena was late because she went over to JB to purchase some winter clothes for her upcoming mission trip to china. she is going back again the 2nd time, to minister to the university students there. when keng hoe had some time to down his food, we took out the cake and celebrated his birthday. it is his 27th birthday (4 Jan)

i feel the entire gathering was a success. we had a good time of fellowship, good food. next year we are arrowing matthias to be the chairman. peter had been the alumni chairman for 2 years already. i think i will still be the self-appointed secretary for the group. haha. doing the best that i know lor.

lastly, i pray that all the people in this group will have a wonderful 2006, full of blessings in all areas. for those who are still single, i pray that you will find your partner soon. for those getting married this year, i pray that you will have more than enough for everything. for those pregnant, have a healthy baby. for the rest, i pray that we will be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. God bless you all and i love you.

Year 2006

2006-01-01T07:22:00.000-08:00

another year is here. another year has passed. 2005 seems to pass by very quickly. many things has happened and changed. what have i learned in this year? what events had been the most important to me? what are the things i would like to forgive and forget? bear with me if you are reading, as i look back into 2005 and do some review.

one of the most stress years i had was 2005. becos it was my first year doing extreme sports for the youth conference in june. there is so many admin things to take care of and not to mention the numerous logistics to handle. not with help from klessis, my cg members and other people, i think i would have collapsed half-way.

in sept, something great happen. klessis started work in chc office. now we can finally go to work together, go home together, have lunch together. also becos of the same nature of work, we can help each other and understand each other's stress and tireness more. god is so good to the both of us. fulfilling our longest desire, to be able to work in church.

also in this year another super big news is joey. at this moment, kless is about 6mths pregnant. another 3-4mths joey will be born. this is going to be another stage of life for me. from birth to study to work to marriage to parenthood. how many stage have you gone thru? i can only give thanks to god to be able to go thru at least parenthood. joey, papa is waiting for you, you must be a god-fearing girl and grow strong in his word.

in dec, something major happened too. i have been under pastor lillian since the day i stepped into chc in aug 2000. now me and my cg has been transferred to pst chee kiang's zone. all the close friendships i had for the past 5 years, it's not easy to change so suddenly. i just want to thanks all the friends, leaders and members in previous LC zone. all of you have given me a lot of care over the past 5 years. looking at the bigger picture, we are still in the same church and i believe we will have chance to work together again.

so in 2006, what will happen? i do not know. one thing for sure, we are going to grow the church like never before. we are going to do more mission work. we are going to be more prosperous. we are going to have more breakthroughs.
also, more marriages. keng hoe & lixia. bruce & shaun. lester & joy. joseph & linying.
looks like 2006 is going to be another wonderful year.

My CD Birthday Card!

2005-12-31T09:08:00.000-08:00

This is from my beloved cell group...

31 years old

2005-12-30T22:18:00.000-08:00

today is my 31st birthday! happy birthday isaiah..

yest during our cg thanksgiving, my dear mbrs gave me a surprised birthday celebration. i was really not expecting it. they did a cd birthday card with all the mbrs' recorded blessings, so nice. mango cake, skin shirt, even peter lau came with a gift. thank you very much my dear friends...rem my wish for next year, we will go on a mission trip together...

klessis did me a 'youtube' presentation too..actually she started to learn how to use the program and managed to do such a good one. she is really talented in such creative things. hopefully joey will follow mommy in that aspect.

birthdays are good but also a time to rem my mother. she is the most wonderful mother in my life. given birth to me 31 years ago, took care of me tirelessly, even after i am married, she is still taking care of whether kless and i had enough to eat or not, etc....my mother is a very strong woman. for those who knows her, you will realised that she is not an ordinary mother. first of all, she is very modern, very pretty and looks very young for her age. but more than all these, she is really one of the most spiritually-influential person in my life. leading me in times of troubles and giving me numerous advices on the path of christianity. never allowing the relationship of a mother-and-son to deter her from teaching me the right morals and truths to be a good believer. even until now, she will constantly reminds me to read the bible to our unborn baby...so that God's blessings and words will be filled in her life...

mummy, even though you don't read my blogs, i want to take this time on my birthday to say how much i love and treasure you. you have been the best guide in my life and now also in klessis and will be in joey's life too. i pray that God will continue to bless you with many good years of health and prosperity. you are the best mother i can have in this world. thanks.....

hardly 3 days off

2005-12-29T08:48:00.000-08:00

this week, the church staff all have 3 days off from wed-fri. why? becos we have 3 public holiday that falls on our off day, so it's off-in-lieu lor. also it's a good rest for all those who worked very hard during the christmas lah.

so what had i been doing for these 2 days? yest was busy doing the growth and reports for the zones as we end the month of dec 05. then kless and i went out to walk walk. went to liverpool club @ UE Square. but the store is so small and the place is not as nice as the old place @ Tanjong Pagar. a bit disappointed. actually i was planning to purchase some baby clothing for Joey, but the collections they carried was limited, didn't buy in the end. maybe shop on-line from UK. decided to go for a movie, but the crowd at Plaza Singapura was 人山人海. finally did some shopping and headed home.

today wanted to sleep in late, but got to wake up earlier than expected to do something, ended up going back to office @ Suntec and worked till ard 7pm. finally can leave and went to Han's for dinner with dear. went to browse a pair of sunglasses. but oakley glasses are really super expensive lei, saw a quite nice pair, selling for $430. faint!!

now at home, waiting to finish this blog and go to bed. tml is cg thanksgiving day. so i plan to suntan in the morning, then maybe go for a massage at Sun Plaza ($28 for 40mins lower body massage) must try!! rest in the afternoon and head for cgm at 8pm. tml we are going to tiong bahru market for dinner cum supper, yum yum!!

Post Christmas Shopping

2005-12-28T05:45:00.000-08:00

finally, after a very very long while, i was able to do some shopping for myself. all becos of blessings from my pastors. both my pastors blessed me with some vouchers and cash for this christmas. so on monday i went to cut my hair and highlight and color. my new hairstylist is don, he is also pst tan's hairstylist. i had a chance to meet don for the 2nd time during christmas. haha, he actually gave me a big discount for the coloring.

so what did i buy? a casual jacket, a pair of converse shoes, a pair of slippers. hahaha....so happy.
well, kless bought a few things too, a pair of shorts, 2 blouses. so blessed!!!

Happy Christmas

2005-12-22T08:10:00.000-08:00

why is christmas happy this year? number 1, i got an appreciation gift from church for using my place as cgm venue. number 2, i received the first log-cake i ever received in my life from siow ngea & jaclyn (bbg mbrs). number 3, i am celebrating christmas with my joey!!! joey is my baby girl who is coming soon next april.

christmas is indeed a time of giving and receiving. just only tonight, as i was preparing to go home after meeting my pastor to pass him somethings, i was blessed with a special christmas love offering of $200. then as i reach home, there was another gift waiting for me at my doorstep, a packet of cookie from the company that did our wedding montage. before all these during dinner, david (my only brother) gave us a christmas present, a full set of bedsheet and quilt. i have been longing to buy a new set for our bed for a long time lei. God is so good.

this lead me to remember just yest nite, as i was giving bs to 3 mbrs frm the zone, i was telling them the importance of God's word. we need to hear it, read it, memorize it, meditate on it, apply it. i shared about my own experience of hearing and reading of the word from Ps 34:7 "Delight also in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart." i told the mrbs that by meditate on this verse for about 2 weeks, God finally let me understand the meaning of "delighting in Him". that simply means to spend time with Him, quality time fellowshipping in His presence and do whatever He delights me to do. then He will surely grant me the desires of my heart. simple? can lah, all of us can do it too.

so this christmas, what are we all desiring to have? i desire to have a good time with kessis and also to have a financial blessings so that i can bring her for a trip before she gives birth and got to be busy with the baby. my desire is that my wife will be happy and blessed and loved.

happy christmas to all who reads.......

candle light service

2005-12-18T17:28:00.000-08:00

yest we had out candle light service in expo. thank God for the chance to worship together with my mother and brother. they are from another church, so the times we can worship together is rare.

me and mommy. some were saying i am the spokesman for Hall 8. it's my birthday gift from the leaders.

that's mommy with her candle!!

song of lamentation

2005-12-18T17:11:00.000-08:00

what happens when you fail thrice in the same area? you just don't know how to pick yourself up. it is extremely difficult to understand why everything seems to be going so well in all other areas of life, but yet in this one area, it's failure 3 times. so sad. i pray that God's mercy and grace will be upon Liverpool for losing the World Club Championship for the 3rd time. why? why is the referee is biased against Liverpool? we hit the goal post 2 times, had 21 shots on goal, 17 corners, 1 penalty appeal and 3 DISALLOWED goals!!! why Lord? but we will be back. hard it may seems, but we will be back the 4th time. champions are not those who never fail, but those who never quit. Liverpool will 化悲愤为力量. we will win the matches in champions league, in english premiere league, in FA cup......beware the wrath of the REDS.

PS. i am not mad or crazy, but just a true Reds' fan mourning.................

Chirstmas is here

2005-12-17T08:55:00.000-08:00

hey. today we had a candlelight service in expo. i thought we would be using lightstick instead of real candles becos of fire safety. but we used real white candles and it was such a wonderful sight with about 6000 candles lit in hall 8 tonight.

i think it is a very good idea to celebrate christmas one week earlier. really now the atmosphere of christmas is in the air. everyone was totally enjoying themselves when we lit each other's candle and sing all the carols.

merry merry christmas..

tml is beverly's birthday. happy blessed birthday dear sister...

ham 佬

2005-12-15T21:43:00.000-08:00

starting yest, in the suntec office we are giving out ham gift boxes to certain people. and all the zone secretaries are scheduled to be ham 佬 for at least 2 hours. today i am doing from 12-2pm time slot. just when i took over from the earlier person, the supplier came with another 300 hams.....it's quite cold to put them into the big freezer lei. dawn was joking many pigs had died for all these hams..

have a ham-py merry christmas!!

papa practice

2005-12-14T07:45:00.000-08:00

today i had a chance to practice how to be a papa..i was doing bs duty at ymca and bro edmund brought his daughter nicole to the place..while he was teaching in the function room..i had to take care of nicole..

at first nicole was really nice and stay quietly in her pram..but after a while she started to fidget and i had to carry her..i still have to take bs attendance..so one hand carrying baby..one hand scanning attendance..siong ah..after that..got to carry her and walk around the place and sing to her..nicole is already 6mths old..my baby to come is also about 6mths old in klessis's womb..

as i was carrying her around..many people passed us by and i bet some of them thought that i was the papa..later lixia came up from level 1 and took over..praise God..because arms tired liao..but lixia commented that i will be quite fatherly in future because i am quite tall and my baby will rest very well on my body and feel safe..haha..

overall feeling..i am looking forward to carry my own flesh and blood lor..

baby..papa waiting for you ok..

2005-12-11T23:11:00.000-08:00

long awaited rest

for those who are still working hard....sorry...but today is finally my long awaited day of rest...ever since the week i went back for reservist till now, i have not been really resting well enough...today finally i got to sleep with the least disturbance (i still have to wake up at 10am from a sudden knock on my door)

one of our good fren, john drove over from sengkang to bring us some baby things. he has promised to give us a baby bed & a pram. but more than what he promised, he brought along today a high chair, which my baby will only get to use it maybe when he is 2 years old...later we will going out to do some shopping for our baby...

Xuan's 21st Birthday

2005-12-04T03:50:00.000-08:00

Today is Xuan’s 21st birthday…Happy birthday Xuan…

Yest night some of our cg members went over to Xuan’s house to give her a surprise celebration. Xiaowei chipped in to help us keep her in her room while we sneaked into the room beside and prepare the cake and present. We bought a Crumpler bag for Xuan. Very nice color too….Personally I like Crumpler bags a lot. I have 2 of it. Haha..

At her house we saw a chinese poem using the names of the entire family to compose. So I have decided to also blog my one and only chinese poem I have composed years ago when I was leading the youth group in my former church. Hope you will like it (if not, don’t continue to read lor)

青春一去永不回
年少无知无奥悔
为所欲为谁理会
主恩怜悯再一回

青年为主 was the youth name, if you ever wonder.

Cool?? Try to write something and share if you have.

doing it twice

2005-11-27T06:20:00.000-08:00

today i went to 'The Pines' to attend a couple's wedding from BBG zone. it's a very nice place. i have been there before. to be exact it was almost 8 years ago. john and jennifer's wedding too. i was helping john to lead worship becos i was the worship leader in FGA then. today is was the same sencerio. i was back at Pines to lead worship for edwin and jane. same place twice. doing the same thing twice.

wedding is a funny thing. it's a happy occasion but yet also a time to remember the difficult times a couple went thru together in their lives. when i was leading the worship song for edwin and jane (thru it all). the moment we started to sing. "i sing to you Lord a hymn of love for Your faithfulness to me...." edwin started to cry. i can see that the lyrics of the song really touched him. actually in every wedding. i will be quite emotional. i always tend to feel very touch that a couple is going thru the ceremony of committing to each other their life and be there for each other no matter what. really a wedding vow is the strongest vow a man can give to a woman and vice versa. (like God and us)

getting married is good. if u have not done so. must pray that God will bless you with a good partner and get married soon. (of course you must be old enough ah)

i have gone thru past the stage of marriage. now i am looking forward to parenthood. papa......papa.....

my house -- God's house

2005-11-25T11:10:00.000-08:00

imagine you are working in a multinational company...and your CEO is inviting you to open a joint account together with him...no strings attached....you just got to deposit into that account the best you can do so...and you can enjoy all the money he has deposited in too...sounds good??

it is true...it is that good and you can have it too....today pst phil preached an excellent message about moving a level up....remember the story in the bible about 4 men doing their best to bring a lame man up one level up unto the roof and bring him his healing breakthrough..breakthroughs requires us to move a level up...spiritually....mentally....physically...financially...everything...even our thinkings...

God is better than any CEOs....linking our house together with God's house is the best thing and wisest thing to do....link your house to His house....link your finances to His finances....link your visions and dreams to His visions and dreams....

are you going to do it?? i am..

bye...................

Milk-man

2005-11-23T03:23:00.000-08:00

today i had e chance to be a "milk-man"....i was the driver for the singer 牛奶 from the boy band Energy...not too bad ah...working in church office does have such lobangs now and then...not that i am a fan of him..actually i hardly hear their music...but still the idea and feeling of escorting a singer is quite shiok..

nearly 80 fans were at the airport 1hr before 牛奶 appears...just like how we see it on TV....the girls yelled like crazy when he finally steps out of the arrival hall into a mass group of fans all squeezing towards him just in order to pass him some hand-written letters...cards...gifts....some even said 牛奶，你很瘦，要吃多一点哦！！

these girls are really passionate about their idol....willingly booked cabs at a remarkably expensive rate of $35 per hour....following 牛奶 from end to end...where did they get the money from??

well..牛奶 is quite a nice person....i was in his room waiting for him to go off...just as i turned to leave....i accidentally knocked on the TV door and immediately he was shocked and stopped to check...i must say my view about singers had changed a bit....they may look aloft on TV...but maybe in reality they can be quite sensitive and caring...for some lah....

anyway...that was my brief closeup encounter with a celebrity other than our own Sun....hope to have other celebrity coming to town and our church is playing host to them....maybe 周杰论...

NS admin is so lousy

2005-11-08T03:52:00.000-08:00

how can this be?? the airforce that prides itself with the latest fighter planes, how can they allow this to happen? the security is so not secure at all.

this morning as i was booking in to camp thru the back gate into my unit, i was greeted by a rude shock. as usual, i walked pass the guard house and took no special notice of the RPs on duty. then suddenly i was called back, they wanted to see my pass again. my pass has expired, oct 05. how can that be? just yest when i booked in for the first day of my ICT, this same pass was given to me by the clerk in-charge of all the training. in the end, i was asked to sit at the guard house for more than an hour....

2nd day passes by super slow. after lunch the time just seems to be crawling..training will be starting tml..so today is the last day of rest for this entire ICT..

time for some sleep liao................................................................

1st day in camp

2005-11-07T04:40:00.000-08:00

what a change..everything is different from last year..firstly at the paya lebar airbase main gate, i was asked to surrender my mobile phone becos it's a camera phone. who is going to take pictures of the things in a camp? unless you are a terrorist lor..

then during the briefing session for all the NSmen, a new RSM was present to talk to us. apparently the old RSM has retired and now working with SMRT. imagine one day seeing the once fierce and feared RSM driving the MRT. what a joke!!
as usual, the old-timer NSmen were really amazing bo-chap..there was a NSmen who is serving his last year of reservists this time, when questioned why didnt he shave, he replied he did. but his chin is covered with beard studs. finally he has the cheek to say that he did shave, but forgot to put in the blade. winner!!

i'm very tired now, having done nothing much in camp except to wait for the officer-in-charge to interview me, waiting for the training program to be printed out. hopefully tml will be better, i will be going to eMart to purchase some socks and t-shirts. will be able to exchange my old coverall for the new 2-piece coverall. :)

7th ICT this year....3 more to go before ORD.....

Baby Mithalina

2005-11-06T00:27:00.000-08:00

i have decided to blog as much as possible daily. no particular reason, just to be faithful in a small thing like this lor..

today is the last day of freedom for me, i am going to reservists tml for 2 weeks. it's going to be the same old boring stuffs again. i'll update more tml.

went to NTU to do bible study duty, kless came along to help out and bought lunch for me. sweet..after that we went back to church becos i am meeting baby mithalina for the first time. she is bee bee's new born girl. she is only 6 weeks old and her hair is so long and curly. so cute. coming from a man who is going to be a father soon next year, i am really looking forward to carry my own baby asap.

mithalina is really a very special name, no special reason in the name but quite cool, sounds like a mexican name though..bee bee is looking good and seems to have slim down quite fast. hope that she can bring the baby for cg soon and all the rest of the cg mems will be able to see her.

cool...

Ed Hardy Fashion Show

2005-11-05T09:24:00.000-08:00

today kless and i went for a really superb fashion show at hereen. it's the first ever ed hardy fashion show in s'pore, probably even in asia (i'm not too sure lah). the clothings were nice and daring. really got to have style to be able to carry it off nicely. the caps were very nice too, but just a bit too expensive for me. one of my collections is caps. altho i only wear a few selected ones all the time, but so far i have ard 20-25 caps. hoping to have maybe 50 one day.

after the show, we decided to go and have our favourite 豆花. on the way there, kless asked what if the shop is closed to today, how can it be? it's not a special holiday mah. but really there is power in your words. the shop is open but there was no hot 豆花 it is not ready yet. NANI??? what is the chance of such a thing to happen?? in the end, i got to drink the cold soya bean drink. sian...

but a consolation after that, i brought kless to the tao restaurant to listen to some live music. it is the 2nd time i went there. the first time was by chance, i learnt that there is sort of 名歌餐厅 style. it has been in my mind to enjoy a quiet night with kless just sitting there listening to some chinese songs. kless loves to sing chinese pop mah. and god is good, managed to heard 一个人生活 and 童话.

幸福!!

你看得懂吗？

2005-11-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

今天我决定用中文写一写我的一些感受。如果你看不懂，那是你的问题。。。。

几天前和老婆一起去妇产科医生检查，但还是不能确定宝宝的性别。但这并不是重点啦。。最重要的是baby是健康的。其实，baby非常的活跃，前两次的scan都看得到baby的双手一直的在动，好像在跳舞。haha。。所以我相信以后孩子一定是个运动高手，像老爸一样。

为什么要用中文写呢？我也不知道啦。。可能一直以来我都很喜欢写中文字吧，但又有很多字不会写lor。。认识我比较旧的朋友应该知道以前我曾经在教会(FGA)华文部服事了十年。在这十年里，就有机会学习以华文读圣经，用华语祷告，用中文写笔记。一直到了CHC，才慢慢的转过来英文。现在如果要我以华文祷告，可能有一点难。

这个星期有两个公共假日，所以有很难得的休息。原本在星期二要出国去马来西亚，可是最后没有机会。结果和仁杰，德兴一起去圣陶沙走了一个下午。然后去Arab St吃晚餐，再去Upper Serangoon喝咖啡。非常写意吧？哈哈。。

其实这一个星期来，我的心情是有一点七上八下。我也不知道如何地解释，但我将经历一项很大的转变。我的心情是伤心中带着点期待。天下无不散得延席。心中有许多的问题，但是没有人能给我答案。我只能咬紧牙关，不了解也得走过去。有一点像四年前我从FGA过来CHC一样。心中带着千百倍不舍，可是却相信神是有他的安排。

我是一个瞒守旧的人啦，所以我会喜欢收集一些旧东西。直到现在我还是非常的想念过去和朋友一起服事的日子。需然我时常口上说我不要活在过去，但心里还是常常想着过去快乐的时光。心里的一部分，会希望有一天能再一次这样的玩。

今晚也不知道为什么会这么感性？？很久没有用中文写，可能因为这样而触动自己的心情吧。希望你读得不会很累。好了，后会有期！！

SOT Team 3 Dinner

2005-10-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

tonight we had a small gathering for the SOT team 3 of 2004. peter with ivy, lena, rachel and me. many others did not make it again. but nevertheless, we had a good time together. we went to taman jurong for fish head curry. it was the first time in my life, i was in the same foodcourt for dinner and changed 3 different tables. we had fishhead at table 1, dessert at table 2, coffee at table 3. steady right?? haha.

after a long time since the last gathering (actually i think the last gathering was during CNY @ my place), tonight we were still able to enjoy each other very much. even though i was a bit sick and tired out physically, i had a great time fellowshipping. we had arranged that the next gathering will be on the 2nd of jan 2006. we are going to marina south, play bowling and fly kite in the afternoon and then steamboat buffet at night. sounds wonderful..hopefully everyone will be able to turn up with their spouses as well. kless will be 6 months pregnant by then..

peter even talked about sending out invitation cards to all the team members so that they will remember this coming gathering. can only pray that everyone is freed up then.

BBQ @ East Coast

2005-10-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

finally after a long while, our cg went for a cg outing @ east coast. it was a joint effort with N252 klessis's cg mems. Gary and Kristie were the 2 main person in-charge and i think they did a great job. for the first time in my life, all the food prepared for the bbq were finished up.

many frens came, i heard kless's cg got more than 10 frens. our cg is not bad as well, i counted 10 frens too. considering only 7 mems managed to turn up. we had a great time. kristie bbq a mashmallow for me and that was the best i had ever tasted. crispy on the outside and soft inside, and it also tasted sweeter like what gerald said.

gary brought along some charcoal for the bbq, and it was actually a new type, not the usual one we used (longish in shape), the ones he brought were actually like stones, but black. very funny looking when he tried to light up the fire. but truly it burned much longer than the normal ones. another lesson learnt. (try new things, the old may work, but new things most likely will work better)

sau ping came along too. it was really fun to have him around. some how he can just say something very corny and funny. then the whole group will start to laugh. (we were using ice cubes to wash hands, he was taking the ice bag walking ard and asked if anyone wants to wash their feet too).

all in all, i think everyone enjoyed ourselves. now we are already planning for the next outing, most likely karaoke session. then another one after that would be a trip to Expo for dinner. just to get a feel of the place before we move over.

sleep sleep liao. ciao

Poor me

2005-10-16T09:51:00.000-07:00

boo hoo hoo hooo......

my dear is pregnant and becos of her pregnancy, her taste buds had changed quite a bit. since then, she has been craving for food that is stronger in taste. spicy, sweet or salty.

just then, she decided to cook some dinner for the 2 of us, so blessed. but then becos she wants to eat something more salty, the fried rice turned out to be a bit too salty than usual. in the end, i have to drink at least half a litre of water to quench my thirst.

but i am not totally a hard-hearted man. i love kless very much. how can i not? people says that a woman looks prettier when she is pregnant, i totally agree. (dear, if you are reading this blog, i want you to know, you are really getting prettier daily)

tml going to wake up early and do some packing for the church. then will be heading to Sentosa for some time of relaxing by the beach. 2 more days to our 2nd wedding anniversary...time really flies..so fast 2 years le..

ciao

Book is better than movie

2005-10-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

just watched the 3rd Harry Potter movie on HBO. well, i was a bit disappointed about it. so much details has been skipped and to be frank, if i have not read the book beforehand, i would not have understood certain things in the movie. they just do not have the time to put in so much details. what a pity.

still dwelling on this topic, i was telling some friends today, i only started to read Harry Potter after the 6th book was published. i was wondering why so many people in the world are fascinated about this single book, and mind you it's a children's book. what really prompt me to start reading is becos on the news i saw the long queues in China, waiting for more than 14hours to buy the lastest Harry Potter book, chinese crazy over an english book. must be something interesting. then the rest is history. i bought the first 5 books and had finished reading all. in the midst of it, managed to get a few other people to join me in reading too. haha...bad influnce ah..

so, hopefully the upcoming 4th Harrry Potter movie in Nov will be better than the 3rd.

ciao

Maternity shopping...me??

2005-10-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

well, this afternoon after lunch, me and kless went shopping a bit ard in marina sq & suntec. went into a couple of maternity shops, but didnt manage to buy anything. either the prices are too steep, or the designs are too old. it's not easy as i tot it will be.

all i tot was going into a shop, find some large size clothings, pay n go. but it seems like a pregnant woman would still very much like to be as pretty as they can. so, i think we are going to spend some time finding the right clothing for kless. of course i want her to look nice nice too. i would definitely be proud too.

these few days, many people ard us have been very nice to us, especially towards kless. many members who met us will surely take a look at her stomach, see whether is it growing bigger. just to report, we went to our 2nd visit to the gyne and the baby is fine and actually growing fast (proud daddy smiling as he writes)... :)

so if any of our friends out there who has any lobangs where to look for good and cheap maternity clothes, please let us know. must be nice ah..

ciao

Don't suffer due to foolishness

2005-10-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

my friends, rem for whatever you do, don't ever fall into this trap. suffering becos of you own foolishness is such a silly thing. you are bringing upon yourself troubles and problems that could have been avoided. and once you are in it, it's so frustrating and discouraging.

recently i made some blunders that was really due to my foolishness. now i am really suffering badly for it. just like what i preached in cg today and encouraged my members, i'll continue to walk on.

seven attitudes to have when we face a problem:
1. problems are inevitable
2. every problem is temporary
3. problems hold positive opportunities
4. problems test our faith
5. problems may be confirmation that we are living for Jesus
6. problems are catalysts for personal growth
7. probelms can draw us closer to God

the truth is, when will we ever learn our mistakes and move on? many times, we will not move on until we have finally graduate from the training. God will resist the proud and gives grace to the humble.

I went sun-tanning today

2005-10-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

finally today i shrug off my tireness and laziness, pack up my things and went to sentosa with kless. actually if kless did not wake up earlier than i did this morning, i would have decided to sleep in once again. but thank God for a good wife and a baby that is hungry (kless woke up to eat breakfast lor).

did a few things today, went to the bank, paid off some bills and then enjoyed a day in sentosa, met up with peter to pass him a gift, just to encourage him, lastly went for dinner with my mother at plaza sing. managed to buy some groceries and 50% discount cakes from coffee bean before heading back home.

when we reached sentosa ard 2pm, immediately there was a loud thunder sound and i tot that was the worst thing that can ever happened (not as bad as liverpool losing last nite). kless bought a magazine and we walked all the way from palawan beach to siloso beach, thinking maybe to find a shelter to read her magazine and i waste my day away daydreaming. as we walked along the beach, we realised that there was really quite many people who are free on mondays. even joked that maybe all of them are church staff like us from another church enjoying their monday offs too (haha).

nearing rasa sentosa, we found a place to sit down and decided to go for a swim lah, even if it rain later, we will still be wet, never mind lah. but after 30mins, the sun came out shining bright and strong. thank God for the sun. not needing another invitation, i laid myself flat on the beach and enjoyed at least 30mins of sun-tanning. yeah!!

after leaving sentosa, i met up with peter. he is working in habor front office tower. wow, that place quite nice to work in, facing the sea but just a bit not accessible lor. peter is looking good, he has slightly put on weight on his face. but otherwise, he is still the same, was glad to see him.
tried to look for huirong at shi-lin, but not there. maybe next week.

finally able to spend some time with mummy at dinner. went for her favourite BK meal. altho it was a short time together, but always able to spend some moments with her has been a blessing for both kless and me. actually wanted to treat her to a movie show, but didn't manage to find a show she likes. in the end, went shopping for some housing necessity.

all in all, today has been a happy day spent with my family..

thank you Lord..

Make Room For GOD!!

2005-09-23T09:53:00.000-07:00

today's message was tremendous. altho it was not a brand new sermon, but what God is speaking from it is definitely new and hot. i remember Pst Tan once shared that every time he hears a sermon, he determines in his heart that he wants to get something out of it from God, and then he really did get new revelations, even though the sermon maybe very old. i did the same tonight.

Pst Kong shared from 2 Kings 4:8~35. talking about the woman who make room for the prophet Elisha. and how this story is also applicable in our walk with God, how we should be willing and prepare a room in our heart for God to dwell in us. if you want to know more about the whole sermon, let me know, i'll forward you the notes. let's really learn and out it into actions, making room in our heart for Him.

there was one sentence that really struck my heart as i hear Pst Kong preaches tonight. he said "you make room for God by allowing yourself to be discipled by the leaders placed over you". so true. becos the leaders placed over us is divinely placed there by God. we do not need to justify whether the leader is good or bad, but understand that it is Him who placed them over us. then by allowing ourselves to be discipled by the leaders over us, means we are willing to allow God to disciple us. simple truth but many time overlooked.

Pst also mentioned that our dreams will sometimes die. but this death is paving the way for another greater dream to be birthed. so wonderful. as i hear this, once again i must say it is not a new revelation, i've heard it many times and in fact i've preached it many times too. but as we tuned our heart to receive, God is able to give us new things out of the old. i came to realise that my long enduring dream since young is no longer there. i dreamt to be a pastor since i was 9 years old. but now, i feel i no longer live for this dream. i am not saying i don't want to be a pastor anymore. i still do. but that dream has come a full-stop. the chapter has ended and a new chapter is beginning soon. right now, i feel my dream is the dream of my pastor, Pst Lillian. and as i talked to her, i realised that her dream is Pst Kong's dream. that is to build a strong church and to do many more other things. thus, in aligning my dream to Pst Lillian, i am indirectly aligning my dream to Pst Kong's dream as well. powerful lah..

right now, i feel like doing nothing but growing out zone. really doing my best and praying the hardest that the Holy Spirit will be able to use me in the way He deems to be the best. i will always avail myself and be a friend to the Holy Spirit. allowing Him to lead me in all my ways. easy to say, difficult to do. but i am determine to do so. hope if you read this, you will be blessed and make the same decision too.

God bless and good night..

2005-09-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

We have all grown up!

tonight after cg, i went over to a friend's place for gathering of the former church gang. altho not all the original group was there (it's almost impossible to gather everyone now, all so busy), but we had a great time fellowshipping and finally meeting my close friend's son, Jonas.

leslie is the same age as me, but got married 2 years earlier than i do. we have been close friends since the days of our youth. growing up in the same church, serving together in the praise & worship team. going out together for holiday. i have seen the days of his happiness and also seen the days of his sadness. these type of friends, it is really hard to find. and i really thank God for placing him in my life.

it is a very special feeling when i saw jonas just now, it's like seeing the next generation of my good friend and immediately i feel a special type of bonding with him. jonas is very friendly, exactly like his dad, he allows all the people to carry him, and kissed all of us on the cheek. so cute.

when we left, he wanted to follow his daddy to send us off at the bus-stop. leslie asked him to hold someone's hand as we go, little jonas turned around and held my hands after looking around at all the aunties and uncles. so sweet. must have caught the friendship bond from his dad.

what is my feeling after such heart-warming session with old friends. i can only say we have all grown up. and as i look around the table as we eat, i can see the work of God in each individuals' life and how each one has grown much spiritually and mentally.

just like what one of the leader said last night, i wish to have a group of friends that i can grow old together serving the Lord and build a strong church together in this lifetime.

2005-09-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

My wife is sitting opposite me!

finally a dream has come true...kless is on staff..and just so great that she is sitting just opposite my desk..what can be better than that? every morning we will take the mrt to work...go for lunch together (if possible la)...then go home together...(i know those of you reading, must be super envious liao...)

but seeing her working so hard, make me sayang her more..previously we work in different places, i would never know how she worked and how diligent she works..but now it is different lor..will heart pain to see her work too late...i think that is just natural of a husband lah...haha...

right now, kless has a laptop too...so we have 2 laptops at home and work side by side or do our own things side by side....but she was not able to log on into the wireless at home...until yest, we approach a good friend of ours and asked for help..he is really an expert in IT....he used msn to do a remote assistance on my laptop...i just need to invite him online to assist me and allow him to take over my laptop...then....he can do all the necessary changes and updates just like that....i can see him moving the mouse ard my laptop...so cool!!

IT is really a wonderful thing and amazing thing....if you know how to use it probably, it will be the best tool for doing many things and accomplishing many tasks.. talking about this topic, i suddenly remember that the Bible is also just like a tool that can accomplish great things...as long as the user is able to use it the right way and learn to be an expert in it....

well, now i think kless is blogging too...but i am logging off...ciao

Little thing counts

2005-08-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

today i had a very good talk with one of my fren. it is one of those talks that we usually ponder, why didnt i do it much earlier. we had such a great fellowship session. many things were being shared and many thoughts were being discussed. it's been a long time since i sat down for about 3 hours, having an eventful talk with someone.

while, one thing my fren mentioned throughout the entire talk was that in s'pore, everyone is so busy with our own agenda and hardly spend time for real relationship. many times, a simple gesture of calling the other person and say hello or a sms to remind the other person that he or she is on your mind is so important. little things like these amounts to much in other people's heart.

a mutual fren of ours mentioned that christians are very different from others, they are so nice, they actually make the effort to meet up for dinner. isnt that a very simple thing to do? but yet many of us are forgetting about the one real reason why are we here on earth. is to have a relationship with another man.

dun allow the busyness of this world choke our lives. we are humans who need to have a healthy relationship with one another. healthy means communication. communication is not enough just by sms all the time. that is superficial. humans are flesh and blood with feelings. communicating thru sms is not flesh and blood. meeting up for a coffee is.

i really thank God for this awakening call in my life, especially as a cgl. God has placed people in my care, for me to be a shepherd over them. that simply means to be a responsible steward to maintain relationship with them. i cant allow my busyness and own agenda to cloud my calling. if not, then dun be a cgl. a leader is to communicate.

so today, i called up many of my frens whom i have not been calling for a long while. it's a bit funny, dun know what to say. but i can detect that underneath all the odd silence, my frens are really glad that i still rem them and made the effort to take just 3mins to call them and say hi. 3mins to tell them we still care. wow..

Overnight Prayer Meeting

2005-08-21T16:59:00.000-07:00

just came back from an overnight prayer meeting in church. altho this is not the 1st OPM i have attended, but it's one of the few ones that i feel so recharged after an OPM.

this time round, we started OPM at 1am, planning to end at 730am. when we started, i was really blessed by the praise & worship session. especially the song "create in me a new heart", a line in the chorus sang about "worthy of Your calling". really brought me back to my senses that no matter how much i tried to be the best and do the best, i must never forget the reason why i am doing what i am doing now. am i worthy of His calling? if not, then i should be.

if you feel not being able to love the church as much as you want. if you feel you can't love your cg mems as much as you hope to. if you feel you can't serve the people around you as much as you wish to. then the only thing to do is to go back the the beginning and learn to love God more. once you have learnt to love Him more, then you will be able to love the church, the cg, the vision, your calling more. it will become natural. becos Christ is the head of the church & the rest is the body. simple.

we prayed for Sun's concert in new york this morning. the time difference was exactly 12hours behind us. thus we started to pray for her final rehearsal at 3am (our time), then at 6am for the actual concert. Sun was selected to do the 18,000 seater concert's opening song. it's indeed such a great favor from God and such an honor. exactly at 6.10am, pst kong called from hong kong and delivered the good news that Sun's performance was a super great success. yeah!!!! her performance was even better than the rehearsal and all the reporters and press were very surprised and greatly impacted by her singing and dancing. it's really great. when all of us in the auditorium heard this news, we just shouted and scream with joy. our OPM has once again been a success, God has answered our prayers and have seen our hard work. thank you Jesus!

that's why i can't go to sleep until i have written all this down. be blessed after you read this. and hopefully it will inspire you to come and join us for the next OPM to experience the trueness of God's work.

good day!!

A Month Later

2005-08-19T03:48:00.000-07:00

whew!! finally i had the time and remembers that i still has a blog. for those who thought that i am gone, finished, let it be known, I AM BACK!!

many things have happened in the last one month. building fund has started, 16th anniversary is over, FOP is finished. so much has been accomplished and so much has been changed. right now, the church is gearing up for the next glorious 16 years in serving the Lord and changing the world for God. i believe that the next step would be great and most important. time is slipping away even as i type my message and you reading it. but are we truly making use of the time to do God's will.

recently, i am starting to give more bible study than before and it's really a blessing to be able to give BS. not only do i have the chance to impact and help others to grow in the Word, i myself is tremendously blessed just preparing the BS notes. like what i shared to my members, giving or receiving BS is like stirring the living water in us and causing it to flow once again. we may have stopped flowing for a while, but as long as we are willing to start allowing God's Word to flow into and out of us, the living water will once again be flowing.

this 2 weeks, i have been teaching BS about doing the will of God. our body is consecrated to solely do His will. same thing as worship, if God is the first in our worship, it is not worship. worship is when God is the only one. doing God's will is also the same. if we are just placing God's will above our on will, then it's not doing God's will. doing God's will is only having one agenda in life, His agenda.

currently i am going through some stage of renewing my mind. things have surfaced in my life that requires me to really stop for a moment and ponder. some of us may be in the same situation as me, but at least i can encourage myself that God is good all the time. as long as we are willing to change and allows Him to deal in our life, i see no reason why this period of moulding will not go away. just be strong and learn to encourage yourself. many times, it's important to know how to encourage ourselves. the best thing is not people's words, besides God's word, the 2nd best is our own.

to end this blog, let me share a testimony. last month, we pledged in the building fund and i pledged an amount that really touches my heart and it's a sacrifice that only God can provide. after i pledged, i asked God for His blessings over my life. this time round, i asked God to bless me in a new way. i have never experience God's financial blessings like receiving a mailed cheque or cash delivered. previous experiences were pay increment, bonuses, more tuition jobs. so this time, i ask God to do a new work.

2 weeks ago, i received a cash cheque from someone for $1000. just like that. i nearly cried, not because of the amount, but rather God is so real and true. but the blessing did not stop like that. what happened was the person who gave me the cheque, wrote cash but crossed the cheque too, thus causing the cheque to become void. so he arranged to meet me up and counter-sign on the cheque. little did i know that when he counter-sign on the cheque, he increased his giving to $2000. amazing~~

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.

are you a bookworm?

2005-07-23T08:54:00.000-07:00

just a few days back, the latest Harry Potter book is out. the sixth book. many people around the world queues up for maybe more than 15hours just to be the first few to get their hands on this book. how crazy people can get? just for a book.

well, i must admit i am quite a bookworm myself too. i was at the borders just now. met gerald, kristie n yoon chyi who just finished a sumptuous sakee sushi meal. i went to borders in search of the first book of JK Rowling. however, much to my dismay, there isn't any left.

reading is one of my favourite hobbies. i can read for hours on my free days and even into the nights. i think it all started during my younger days. i use to go to these mobile library, it's like a big bus filled with books taken out from the national library, made easy for people who lives far from the library. i rem times when i can spend the whole afternoon just in the bus, looking for the books i want. hardy boys, tintin adventures, reader's digest, etc.

now, a few of my favourite authors are like John Grisham (i read all his books), Colin Forbes (i read all his books too), Peter May, Paterson B. Scott. actually i like novels on law, war, mystery, detective. maybe in me i have always wanted to be a secret war agent disgusing my role as a lawyer. haha, dun tell anyone ok?

so, tomolo i'll go out again in search of my first Harry Potter book, wish myself good blessings..

if you like to read, do feel free to get some books to me or introduce some good books. but not romance.

it is moi..after a long time..

2005-07-17T23:58:00.000-07:00

finally it is done...we have all given our precious last weekend for the arise and build..what is left of us now is to keep the faith and fulfill the pledge..easier say than done...but 100% possible...like what we leant in cg last week...when God created the heaven and earth in 7 days...he rested on the 7th day and said that it is done...what is going on in us is actually a work that has long been finished...we are just going on in this eternity time-frame achieving whatever that has been accomplished....

last friday as i was preparing to give....once again i must say the Holy Spirit is working in me to give an amount that is really touching my heart....it like 2 years ago....when He challenged kless and i to give our precious just one mth before our wedding....wee gave in tears and definitely reaped in joy..this time round...i believe it will not be different....

yest...i was watching "lost" the serial till quite late....so today woke up late...it is really a nice show...very exciting...if not for the tireness knocking...i will continue to watch till this morning without sleep at all...so all my wonderful plans of going to suntan...swimming...gym...is once again shelved for future weeks...seems like ziwei is right about saying i will be too lazy to go out on mondays...haizzzzzz.......

really hope that i can have the determination to go for some form of sports...i feel my body is really very weak and all the muscles are like crying out for some workouts...what can i do?? one of my weakness is that i need someone else to motivate me to excercise...i can do other things by my own...but when it comes to excercising...i need help...

well..before anything else...moi going to eat something first...catch up again...i hope in the next few days...

PROUD OF YOU!

2005-07-10T07:21:00.000-07:00

this blog is dedicated to my cell group members..

i am very proud of my cell group members!! they are indeed living a life of a true disciple of Christ. i can still remember one friday after service, i was talking to some of my members and challenging them to rise up to have a bigger heart for the new friends in our cg and really have initiative in integrating them. after that serious talk, immediately the next day onwards, all of whom i have talked to, decided not only to be hearers but doers of the Word.

since that day on, they have been very active in arranging outings like dinner, karaoke, coffee time, etc. i can really see the hunger in them to do something for the Kingdom of God and bring in the harvest. several CGLs in the zone has been asking me how to grow their cg, but i can only say besides having faith in God, pray, one other important factor is unity of the cg members.

unity is not easy to come, we need time and effort to build it. but once it is built, one can do a lot more and accomplish much more. the place of agreement is the place of power.

there is a particular cg member in my cg, jingjun. she is a malaysian working in s'pore. jingjun joined us ard last june, since then she has been very regular in all services, cgm, bible study, seminars, overnight prayer mtgs, etc. she is the type of members all CGLs would like to have. but there is something else in her that is more valuable. she has a big heart for the new friends in the cg. everytime we have a new friend in the cg, she will always be one of the earliest to interact with them and try to make the new friend comfortable. many times, she told me that she is not very talented. she can't speak fluent english, she can't talk about many different topics, but she has that little ability God placed in her and she decided to just use it. that is all we need to do. the rest will be done by God.

and because of the great unity in our cg, every cgm has never been boring, because God's presence is always there. even before the coming Arise & Build, many of the members are already being blessed tremendously. Kristie has been selected for promotion just after 7 mths in the new company and has just been informed of an increment that is near to $1000. WOW!

3 other members are getting new jobs and working in big companies in their industry. Beverly is offered 2 other positions from 2 different departments in UOB. Sau Ping is promoted to be a manager in a new company. Xiaoxuan is working in IBM, the biggest IT company in my view. God is indeed true and faithful.

to all e335 members, i love you all and thank God for you in my life, to encourage me, teach me and love me.

My revelation....

2005-07-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

Last Friday, after the service, I was asking God for a word to encourage my members during the post-service briefing. As Pastor Kong was sharing about how he and Sun would periodically go to their savings account and take out a portion of their savings and place it on the altar for God, I was struck by he word ‘altar’. God then showed me 2 stories in the bible.

Firstly, in the story of Noah and the ark, after the flood has subsided, God gave Noah a promise that He would not destroy the world by water again. After receiving the promise, Noah built an altar to give God a sacrifice. The bible said that he gave an offering so great that the aroma of the offering pleases the Lord very much. Then I was wondering, where did Noah get the sacrifices from? Yes, he had the animals with him in the ark, but he could not have used all of them. But still he can give an offering that pleases the Lord. My conclusion is, God must have provided for the offering.

Jacob, in his dreams, saw the Lord and the Lord blessed him with a promise that he will be great as his fathers, Issac & Abraham. When he awoke, Jacob built an altar and praised the Lord. However, Jacob was fleeing from Esau at that time, so he couldn’t have possibly brought a lot of things with him on the run, in order to give a good offering. Once again, God made me realize that it must have been Jehovah Jireh who provided the sacrifice.

Similarly for all of us, God has given CHC a promise, to build a building in the marketplace, for the marketplace. He has promised that we will have 30,000 members 50,000 even till 100,000 members. And Pastor Kong has set the altar for us to give to this promise. The next thing is our offering. But we do not need to worry about how we can give or how much we should give, because just like how God had provided for Noah & Jacob, He will also surely provide for us to give Him a sacrifice that will please Him. Amen!!

Let’s all move in the spirit and catch hold of this vision and live for Christ especially during this time, for we are placed in this church, at this moment, for a reason. To build Him a great house, just like what Jacob said, “How awesome is this place, the Gate of Heaven.”

owner of nothing steward of everything

2005-06-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

i dun hv anything...but my God has everything...so hor...i hv everything lor!!!

even time is not mine...yest i went 2 JB with a group of old frens....it was 2 actually 2 go over 4 seafood dinner...an activity which we hv been doing 4 e past few years...2 celebrate e guy who is enlisting soon...as far as i rem...we did it all for andrew, vincent, nigel, now 4 dexing....

it was really a great chance 2 catch up with old frens....i think it has been maybe years since we went out in such a gathering....e food was good n rather cheap as compared 2 spore lei....

talking abt stewardship...i am really looking 4ward 2 e upcoming arise & build....becos it is a time 4 me 2 do a part 4 e church n also 4 God....really where yr treasure is where yr heart is 2.....dun know 4 what reason...i am waiting eagerly 4 e chance 2 give...just feel in my heart that God has instore 4 me a great blessing n e way 2 open e door 4 this blessing is when i give....also this giving will open e doors 4 breakthrus in my life n cg...

e bible says....blessings n curses.....life n death....choose blessings....choose life....what we waiting 4?

dearie's birthday

2005-06-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

well, today is my dear wife's birthday. so it's a must to blog a few words lah.

the most difficult part of celebrating her birthday is buying the gift. why? becos she always can guess what i want to buy and there will be no more surprise element. but of course the most surprising idea i can have is to not buy lor. but once again, i cant bear to not buy at least a gift for dear lah. in the end, i bought her a watch. a watch that she has been eyeing for quite some time. but no chance to really buy it.

just now when i went out to meet her at novena, i actually tot of many ideas how to celebrate. wanted to go sentosa and spend the night watching the musical fountains. or maybe go for a stroll in botanic gardens. but in the end, we just went for a meal in takasimaya. but had a good time at seoul gdns too. havent been there for a long time liao. the beef slices are simply too good. anyway, after dinner, actually wanted to go ktv. of course on kless's birthday, whatever she wants, she gets lor. but then she said too expensive, she rather spend the money for taxi to work for the next few days. what a funny idea.

annie gave kless a very thoughtful present. she made many coupons for her. coupons like ice-cream, taxi rides to church, french fries, etc. so whenever kless feels like it, she can bring the coupons to her and claim her freebies. so creative.

happy birthday dear! i love you forever!!

dream on my friends!

2005-06-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

after reading a few blogs written by you all. i realised that we are all talking about our dreams and what God has placed in our hearts to do and to fulfill. that is indeed a very wonderful thing.

as i rem pst tan's sharing last week. he shared that our dream is a like a seed. if the seed is protected and preserved from all the corruption of this world. it will grow into a great and mighty harvest. but once the seed is corrupted. the whole harvest is corrupted. we all have our dreams. dreams of further studying. dreams to be a businessman. dreams to be a leader. dreams to be prosperous. all these are good. but we need to learn to protect our dreams.

i rem when i was enrolled into the army. i didnt know what to do after that. i wanted to continue studying in uni. but my results were not good enough to do so. neither do i have an a level cert. my dream of obtaining a uni cert since young seems like vanishing before my life. after army. i went to work still thinking of that dream. but everything seems so cloudy. but i knew only one thing inspite of all the uncertainty. i protected my dream by concentrating on what God has placed me in. i served my 2 years army time doing the best that i know how. like what i shared with ivan. i have no frens in the army. becos all of them only talks abt sex.woman.money. i was the outcast in camp. i dun join them for drinks. i dun join them for the talks. but i just bite the bullet and went thru the trainings. then in the 1 year of working as a property agent. i didnt like a bit of what i was doing at that time. i dislike to go ard selling houses and properties and saying how good and worth it to buy. BUT GOD is true. after 3 years of waiting and protecting my dream. He opened a way for me to be back in school. i did my degree and was able to complete it. i got a good job and the rest was history.

frens. what i want to say is "DUN GIVE UP" protect your dream and just do whatever God has placed u in roght now even if you do not understand why.

another thing pst tan shared that was extremely powerful. for those whose dreams are dying. dun hold on to that dying dream like if you let go. your life will be gone. if your dream is dead and u know it for sure. then you should let it go. dun decieve yourself. pst tan shared about how our dream is like a seed. if the seed is bad, the harvest is bad. then what the farmer will do is to gather the bad harvest and burn them in the field. but after the harvest is burnt. it in turn becomes the fertilizer for the next crop to be planted. same for our dreams. once it is dead. allow God to burn it away. then it will become another stepping stone in our life for us to dream for another bigger dream. becos now we know what is the thing we should or should not do.

i have a dream to be a pastor one day. this dream is with me since i am 9 years old. a long dream. but it never dies. i am protecting it and nuturing it by doing the best i know how as a zone secretary and as a cgl now. one day. when the time is right. my dream will be realised. even if at a point. God wants to give me another dream and allow this dream to die of. i can say.

Let it be done according to Your Word.

a powerful session

2005-06-18T10:05:00.000-07:00

today or i shd say yest (sat) cgm was a superb session. when we enter into the time of altar call i prayed first for people who have not been baptized in the Holy Spirit. magdalene responded and when i start to pray for her se immediately opened her mouth and began to speak in tongues. altho the tongues was a bit repetitive but nonetheless a step of faith and she experienced the power of God.

after that i prayed for the rest of the members for a new anointing of the Holy Spirit. wow. the presence just flooded in like that. all of a sudden the whole living room is totally transformed and i had to ask my members to stand up to receive the Holy Spirit. as we sang the song. draw me o draw me away Messiah today to Your presence to stay.

i just walk ard in the living room and listen to the Holy Spirit's guidance and laid hands on the different people seperately. i have never felt so strongly the leading of the Holy Spirit in any cgm before and as i pray for the members God gave me the priviledge to prophesy on 3 of the members

for jingjun. God is giving her tremendous wisdom and understanding. one that will surpass even those of highly educated people. she will be used mightily by God to speak wisdom and truth in the lives of the people ard her. even though she did not go a lot of education and may not be fluent in her english but God is using the humble to speak His words in times like this.

for beverly. her dream now is too small. creativity is the word i see when i prayed for her and i just felt the Holy Spirit is giving her a much much bigger dream. a dream that she cannot see with her natural eyes. a dream that will only be unfold once the spiritual eyes are opened. she will do something great for the Lord.

for gerald. i prophesy that the Lord will use his music in another higher level. a level he has never dream of. he will not stop at the level of just playing in a cg or a bs class. he may or may not play in the main service. but he will play for the people in high places. as i pray for him. i saw the image of david playing for king saul. when king saul is being tormented by evil spirits he has to ask david to play the harp to bring peace. i believe God is going to use gerald too in the same way. when he plays for the pple in high places. he will play to bring peace. he will play to bring the presence of God to the meetings.

wow. what a meeting.

then after such a powerful meeting. i went to join kless's cg for bbq at sembawang park. they were all having fun. had a good talk with adam the new australian fren who is leaving on wed. then also spent some time chatting with ivan. i think he is really going thru some difficult times in the army. well i told him it is the same for me when i am in the army. nothing i do is appreciated and no one in the army is really close to me and my fren. but no matter what. the main thing is to know that this 2 years in the army is a training time and ground for us. espescially as a guy. this is a time God is training us to be tougher. not so much physically but rather mentally. if we survive this tough time in the army. we can be stronger when we are in the society working. that is also a way to be trained to be an influence in the marketplace i guess.

then kless's members celebrated her birthday one more time. i was given the task to bring her away from the bbq place so that they can prepare the things. well. as usual. the smart klessis has already guessed much abt the whole thing but she still dutifully submitted and went thru the whole preparation. but the celebration was really touching la. every single mem wrote a card for her and read it to her on the spot. touching man.

that is all for today lah. bye.

nothing much today

2005-06-16T10:02:00.000-07:00

first day of rest. nothing much accomplished. the aircon man suppose to come at 12pm. i woke up at 12.15pm. but thenhe came at 1.30pm. i nearly wanted to cancel his appt. so slow. called him and he still got the cheek to say eating lunch. how come pple can be so bo chap.

anyway. after cleaning up the aircon. i did nothing much except to play winning 11 on xbox. really getting the hang of the game and slowly enjoying myself.

kless came back just now with all her gifts frm her cg mems for her birthday. they even did a powerpoint presentation for her lei. so good hor. well. now got added pressure to do something better for her as her husband lah. must crack my head liao. stress level same as doing extreme sports. maybe more. (dun worry dear. when you read this. i am still clueless abt what to do. haha)

tmr. thinking abt going to suntan. hopefully really can wake and fulfill the dream.

Finally rest is coming!

2005-06-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of work for me this week. i'm on off for the next 2 days. haven't really plan what to do. but defnitely sleeping late. actually can't sleep super late like 2pm or 3pm. tmr at 12pm the aircon man is coming to service our units. since the first day we move in til now. almost 2 years. tmr is the first time we are servicing our aircons. must be super dirty liao.

maybe after that. can go swimming or just laze ard until nite time then go out walk walk in orchard lah. fri is just another day of rest. but at night got svc. so can't say totally nothing to do. also got to prepare for cg msg lei. really looking forward to cg this week. our cg will have 1 new fren coming. he is braynt. can really sing well. like jacky cheung. haha. my cg mems say i sing like leon lai too. they must be very edifying lah.

today we went for lunch together with all the rest of the zone secretaries. the purpose was to cheer careen. she lost her laptop last weekend. and can't imagine how much info is it in gone too. anyway she got to fork out $1900+ to buy a new one and she is feeling quite down lor. thus as good collegues. we brought her to tuk tuk (thai resturant) in suntec. the food was not bad. hopefully she is feeling better now. we even joked that the person who took the laptop will be convicted and start to go to church. attend bible study. becos careen is in-charge of BS.

this week pastor lillian is not ard in spore. she is overseas with bro nic. so as a zone and also a ldr. i really pray that the attd and turnout for svc1 will be good. i can rem that pst once said that when the master is not ard. the talents he left for us. we are to be good stewards and invest wisely and multiply it. that means this week and next. we should be doublely diligent and really ensure tt the svc is good and when pst is back. we can produce a good report. this will of course help us too. one thing. our zone or cg will grow. secondly. like the bible says. when we are faithful in another man's dream. he will give us our dream too. the principle of sowing and reaping lah basically.

today i copied many episodes of gundam seed destiny frm ziwei. now i have less than 200MB in my c drive memory. i think i really need to buy an extra harddisk le. am thinking of asking gerald to help me buy the 80GB harddisk for only abt $110. should be a good buy lah. then i can store all my anime in that harddisk and never worry abt not enough space to enjoy my fav bleach. gundam seed. initial d.

actually i also dun know when did i get hook on to anime. i guess it's not a too bad hobby lah. at least the anime are not good and quite relaxing to watch after a tiring day or week. just that sometimes got to wait for the new episode to be available can be a bit sian. in fact many people ard me are watch anime. mainly guys i have to admit. maybe girls like romantic things. so cartoon not so captivating le.

am i right to say that. feel free to discuss this opic with me lor.

Monday Times

2005-06-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

today i was suppose to go sentosa with kless for a relax suntan-ing session...but hor...at 9.30am....kless wanted to sleep until 10am...then it was 11am...then the plan changed to JB trip instead of sentosa...what happen was both kless n i were totally gonk out....totally sedated....lamer!!!

well...in the end....we woke up ard 12.30pm....did some work for our pastors and then ard 3.30pm....headed for our short trip overseas...i think it has been a few months since i last went to JB.....much has changed...esp the roads and the shops in city square....more shops selling funky & youthful stuffs....in other words...more and more like far east in s'pore...except that the things are much cheaper and may not have so many people in s'pore wearing the same clothes...

we spend most of our money on food....japanese food for lunch...then kopi break...then titbits....then seafood for dinner...hahaha....really had a great time patok-ing with my dear wife...at some time...felt like back to old days when we were still not married....so sweet hor... :)

on another tone....this blogging thing is really fun...altho i dun have the time and luxury to update everyday like some of you out there (nothing much to do is it???).....but it's a good way to pen my feelings...and also a way to exercise my ability to write out what i am thinking....

many years ago....i use to write letters to many of my frens (you know who u are)......it's a very good way to know another person better and easier to express our thoughts than speaking face-to-face...but now where got time...if got time...will end up like this morning lor...lazing in bed...so blogging is good lah...

your ability grows to the level of your dream

dont stop dreaming my frens....me going to dream liao...

It is finished

2005-06-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

finally...emerge 2005 is over...i say this with mix emotions....both with gladness and sadness...gladness becos of the workload and stress is finally over...esp for the extreme sports....sad becos the fun of the entire event has come to a stop...but like wat pst kong...pst sun...pst tan said....the next move is to do the task after hearing such a good msg....

i would say the extreme sports has been a successful one...despite certain hipups along the way...this is the first year i do emerge as a church staff and i kana the most siong part of it...i choose to think it's a prayer answered....becos i asked for my cords to be lengthened....to be stretched....so be careful what u pray for...

many important and precious lessons were learnt in this few days of emerge...particularly the offering msg yest...pst tan was sharing about the lad that has 5 loaves and 2 fish....that's all he has and when Jesus was asking the disciples to get food for the multitudes....this young lad came forward to give the little that he has....God does not require us to give much or to give beyond what we don't have....He just want us to be willing to give the little that we have....a little is much in the Master's hand....

today is a off day given by pst kong...i slept like i was KO....totally exhausted....but God is good...at least dun have to be in office for the whole day....can go in in the afternoon...

coming sat...we are visiting michael and grace as a cg...it will be a great chance to really sow into their lives and also into vanessa...i pray that we will in turn keep this couple and expand the kingdom for Him....after the visitation...it's another chance to reach out to another group of new friends....aaron and jimmy...thru ktv....haha...dun know still got voice to sing or not after so many days of shouting and screaming.....

sun is dumpling destival....so another chance to have mini cg outing again...i think i'm very charged up now to do something in my cg...becos this cg is wat i have at the moment...i'm putting wat i have learnt into practice lor...

signing off le...preparing for other things for the zone...

shopping is a chore!!

2005-06-06T07:43:00.000-07:00

2day i went karaoke with kless...but i didnt sing much.. i tink i only sang 2 songs...cant project my voice at all....so sad....but i tink kless must hv enjoyed herself....

then after ktv we went to orchard to buy a new top for emerge conf....wah.....so difficult to find something i like and within e budget i hv....y??? as one grows older....i feel shopping is very tiring n e best way to shop is really to do it online....even though i hv not tried online shopping...but i tink it's a good way to save time n energy walking ard not knowing wat to really look for n where to look for it...

another monday is coming to an end...rest days r always so fast over....starting tmr is going to be a very exciting day all e way till thurs.....emerge conf!!!!!

my day will start @ 6.30am n end maybe ard 12mn....but really looking forward to it...pst kong's preaching....all the different competitions....and of course my main event on thurs....extreme sports @ sentosa....

hope to see some of u there on thurs...

logging off liao..

long long week

2005-06-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

wow...wat a long week...so many admin to do...so many people to call...so many things on mind..

mummy was hospitalized on wed..but thank God...everything is under control...she told me tat on wed she felt she was going back to heaven...apparently her work on earth is not finished yet lor...but i felt so relived...seriously speaking besides kless...mummy is e next closest person in my life...

i had a talk with my members on fri nite...told them to rise up more...and i am so happy tat they r really so willing to be used by God and do wat i said...immediately on e next day...beverly took e initiative to meet up with a new fren for svc after cgm....after tat God rewarded her with a possible new fren to bring for emerge weekend...so cool...kristie xuan gerald all took initiative to coordinate outings n visitations to integrate our new frens...i am really very proud of my members....they are definitely the best members in chc...

yest we did a farewell for yong ching...he is going over to qingyuan's new cg....this is the first time i took over e335 and send someone out....must really say it's a bit sad to see yong ching move over...we had a great relationship in this cg n he has always been a fren besides being a member...however i have no doubt tat he will be moving on to greater spiritual heights in e new cg...like i told my members....every time when we move to a new cg or a new place....it's a step of faith...rem only when we can leave a place of comfort can we learn to lean more on God n not on ourselves or e people ard us...that goes for me too...

now...on a lighter note...tmr is my off day...not really totally off...i still need to be on call for anything in church...but am planning to go ktv with kless for a couple of relaxation....before a new week starts again...hope to be able to sing...still recovering frm the cough last week...

tire liao....need to sleep....need to....need....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sabbath Day

2005-05-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

today is my sabbath day!! finally a day when i can sleep until 12noon...but that's the latest i can sleep until the phone rings again..

well, a rest day is always fast over...i think today i spent my time quite fruitfully...went out with my mother for a walk in town and had lunch...it's been a long time since we had the chance to talk...once again, the talk was more of her encouraging me and reminding me to stay focus with the things that are happening around me, especially in the area of spiritual....i really thank God for such a mother who is always there for me no matter how good or bad i have been...she loves God so much and that alone will always remind me of the most important thing in life...

something she said this afternoon really encourged me alot..i was talking abt doing much admin work in office and really looking forward to do more pastoral work...then she mentioned that admin & pastoral work goes hand-in-hand....if i am good in my admin work, then i would do a good pastoral work...becos i'll be more detailed in doing my follow-up...that is so true!! just like moses, he has to be good in his admin, gathering people to be over 10s, 100s, 1000s...then can he concentrate on doing the pastoral work...

for all those doing admin work, hope that this can be a revelation for you too....dun belittle the mundane admin...you are actually building bricks upon bricks...unto something that is GREAT! continue the work...

go go go go....

LIVERPOOL ROCKS!!! CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE!!!

After Preliminary

2005-05-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

Whew!!! finally the first round of extreme sports is over..this has been really the most stressful period for since last dec when i first join the church as a full-time staff...never have i tot that doing admin can be so tiring and draining...this is really the difference of handling admin for 1200 people & handling admin for 18000 people...

well, from this prelim round, i found my capacity cap, and realised tat i'll never be able to expand myself without GOd, and also very important, the help of friends around me...also the support of a very loving and caring wife...

yest's prelim @ sentosa was really great...all the contestants that came, really gave their all...can see some of them giving up already after swimming in the sea, but some who had cramps but still insist to continue and finish it...really hope that i can be young again and be part of this exciting and energetic group...

today in church, ziwei & lixia were suggesting that next year maybe we can have an open category for sports in our church....for people like us who no longer qualify for extreme sports, but would love to have the chance to compete in some sports events....testing how far our old bones can go...

last night, after a long day in the sun @ sentosa, our cg went out for a gathering @ settlers cafe....so qiao....kless's cg also decided to have an outing there...so we had 2 grps there making all the noise the people will ever have in mths....it's really a fun place to go..even though the food is not the best you can find, but defintely a place to relax and get to know the rest of the cg mems better...

we had 2 new friends with us last night, jimmy & aaron...jimmy came and joined us before in takashimaya for dinner...so it's really nice to see him again...i think he is getting fitter than the last time we met...he just got back from taiwan but is going to thailand again for a mth with his NSF camp....aaron is a great guy too....he is actually one of the national ice hockey player for singapore...he loves to sing too...too bad, i am having a sorer throat, or else will be going to ktv tmr with him...2 new friends, 2 great and fun friends,,,a great grp of cg mems....verdict = SUPER OUTING!!!!

A new Chapter in Life

2005-05-10T10:17:00.000-07:00

today is really a new chapter in life for me...especially in my spiritual life..

i was driving Pst Tan this afternoon, and he is indeed a man of God...every moment spent with him ard is a learning opportunity...as i was driving him to his next mtg from raffles place, he was in a rush and needed me to drive a bit faster...there was a moment when i was beside a lorry on a 2-lane road..as i was hesitating whether to drive pass the lorry, pst Tan was urging me to go forward....only later did i realised that if i hesitated further, the lorry would have cut into my lane becos his own lane is closed for road repair...he told me that sometimes driving got to be more aggresive...

all of a sudden, i caught it in my spirit, that was the cutting edge pst Tan has compared to other people...that feeling of agressiveness when doing things...it's not in the bad way, but rather the good way of getting things done and ensuring results....

i felt that i haven't been aggressive enough when i try to grow my own cg...i need to be stronger in preaching the Gospel, doing followup, discipling the members....it really shows how much you desire things to happen in your life....

it can be spiritual...it can be career...it can study....it can be anything...

then tonight...pst Phil's msg was equally powerful....no matter where we are, heaven is open for us...we are sometimes placed at the worst sencerio we can possibly imagine, but that's always a reason why we are placed there....we are there so that there can be an open heaven over that darkness....COOL!!!

to all those out there who are feeling that the world is unfair to you.....that life is bad....take it from me...God is where you are!! don't give up....we need people like washington to stand against the germans even when it is dangerous....

we are the washington of our time...

in Him we stand....

A forced blog

2005-05-07T06:01:00.000-07:00

well well well....just like what my title had said. i am sort of forced to write this second blog...my wife has been questioning me why am i not blogging when i have already signed up?? my only answer is busy lor...

but now after cgm and dinner, i have decided to write something...tmr is mother's day...we are planning a family gathering at home to celebrate for our mothers..tot of buying a bottle of red wine for each of them...of course not encouraging them to be drunkards, but it's good for them at their age lah... haha..

working in church has been fulfilling and yet at the same time demanding...i never knew that being a secretary can be so tiring...but it also helped me to realise that everything needs the wisdom and understanding of God to be done...i'll be a good secretary..

today, meiting should be in australia liao, how i wish i can have the time and finance to go for a long holiday too with kless...if given a chance, i'll love to go to Europe...but kless has been bugging me to go HK...only got good food and good shopping for girls leh..but never mind la, as long as she is happy, i am happy too...

God bless Liverpool!!!!!!!!!
everton loses tonight and Liverpool beats arsernal tmr....
Liverpool to win the champions league....

Satu Blog

2005-05-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

i dont know why i am starting this blog, i used to think it's only for those who are extremely free and nothing better to do..well....here i am, bo liao as any one out there reading my blog...

what am i supposed to write? maybe like what my wise wife says, i can use this blog thing as a way to release my stress and to take things out of my super-busy time table & do something brainless...

well, hope that all the frens out there will drop a few precious words in your busyness..

ciao...